At age thirteen, Trish Kearney's idyllic childhood was abruptly ended when her swimming coach -- the internationally recognised George Gibney -- began abusing her, in a process of entrapment and control that would last for years. In her memoir, she describes how suppressed memories of those years resurfaced after the birth of her first child, and the momentous journey set in train when a letter arrived from former team-mate Gary O'Toole, opening the Pandora's box on Gibney's widespread, pervasive abuse. This is a survivor's story, of coming up for air after decades of burying trauma, and learning to breathe again.